reintroducing myself so i don't forget who i am
and what i'll be writing about over the eventful month of june
Halo.
Sav here.
The quarter life pickle, not as big as a crisis but enough to sour your sandwich, is in full swing. Over the last few days, I’ve come to the crippling, chain-realisation of:
I barely have any memory of what has happened in the short-term nor what will happen in the short-term.
I do not believe my present-day actions lay any groundwork for the happiness of my medium-term self.
While I do think what I do provides long-term longevity and livelihood, that’s about it — and I’m concerned that my long-term self would be a satisfied but not very fulfilled gentleman.
It’s quite simple really. My current actions do not line up with who I want to be in the short, medium nor long-term.
However, the reason for that isn’t because I’m not executing well, but because I am entirely unclear on who I am in the short-term, medium-term nor long-term.
Of course it doesn’t align! There’s no line to align to!
I popped over to a cafe last Thursday to do some writing but realised once I sat down that I brought my work laptop instead of my personal laptop. Fuck me.
Luckily enough, I had brought my paper journal, an A5 Midori MD which I hadn’t opened in the last two months and treated it as a sign from God that I needed to introduce myself to myself again, to rewrite my Now page in a few fell paragraphs:
Hi there, I’m Sav. I’m building a newsletter called Journaling in Public, where I write stories and strategies on career, relationships, mindset, and all the joys and challenges of navigating my twenties.
It’s my way of making sense of the world, documenting my journey, and hopefully connecting with others navigating similar experiences.
In my day job, I work in data and analytics at an insurance company where I help my clients make informed decisions while maintain strong relationships.
I love reading, writing, and Nintendo games, discovering new restaurants and cafes, and taking long (sometimes unnecessary) walks. My partner and I enjoy trying new experiences together and burning through movies and shows—everything from new releases to old classics.
Currently, I’m focused on building a content calendar and distribution strategy for Journaling in Public, learning the ropes on SQL and Tableau, and figuring out how to sort cardio into my packed schedule.
I’m pretty happy with that. I really am.
I like it because it’s a reminder that my ideal self is not someone who exists exclusively in the unattainable future, but someone who I already am right now.
(And I do wonder what that excerpt would look like six months from now.)
As we slowly inch towards June 2025, it would be about twelve months since I had a go at writing online and about six months as to when I started writing on Substack.
Back then, I promised myself that twelve months down the track, I would revisit why my purpose and vision as to posting on the internet; and so, this will be one of my two key writing topics throughout my writing in the month of June — the other will be a five-part series about, uh… why don’t you just subscribe and find out?
Just know this, friends — my purpose and vision for Journaling in Public has grown to be quite different to how I put it before.
I’ve grown a bit tired at running away and procrastinating what I actually want — of maintaining the limiting belief that I shouldn’t do anything that I cannot guarantee success in. Hopefully, this is something that makes more sense as I explore and share this topic with you.
(Or maybe it doesn’t make sense, and through putting it on a page, we all realise how atrocious of an idea it is and that nothing except the voices in my head are holding me back from greatness.)
All I can say for now is, watch this space. I’d love for you to join me on the ride, to keep one another accountable, and together we can live a life with more intentionality than we did yesterday. I’ll be updating this post with links (and backlink towards it) as I progress with the navigation of my intentions, the constellation which I call Journaling in Public.